Isobel's Lullaby

Hush little baby, oh don't you cry
ev'rything is gonna be alright
when Daddy's gonna sing your lullaby

Hush little darling, don't be afraid
ev'rything is gonna be just fine
when Daddy's back by your side

Hush little pumpkin, don't make a noise
mommy's gonna look after you
and make sure she repairs what she destroys

Hush little baby, don't ever cry
ev'rything is gonna be alright
now that Daddy sings your lullaby

It's supposed to be a duet and the last stanza should actually be sung by Isobel's Daddy. I'll try to upload the "only-mommy" version later.

You hurt

Do you have any idea how beautiful you are to me?
Do you have any idea what it's like to be in love with you?
Do you really not know?
You are an ocean
of wonderful emotion
I drown in you
hold my breath 'til it hurts
not to

And it hurts, it hurts, it hurts not to be you
it hurts, it hurts, it hurts not to be with you

Do you have any idea how unreliable I am?
Do you have any idea what it's like to fall ito you?
Do you really not see?
You are a desert
of wonderful sound
I drown in you
hold my breath 'til it hurts
not to

And it hurts, it hurts, it hurts not be you
it hurts, it hurts, it hurts not to be with you

Kiss me a little deeper
Bite me a little harder
and I might wake up from this dream
Touch me a little longer
Hold me little tighter
and I might realize this is true

I drown in you
hold my breath 'til it hurts
not to

And it hurts, it hurts, it hurts not to be you
it hurts, it hurts, it hurts not to be with you

So please make me a part of you
eat me alive and swallow me whole
and make a part of you

'cause it hurts, it hurts, it hurts not be you
it hurts, it hurts, it hurts not to be with you

Halt mich auf

Halt mich auf!
Sage mir, dass du mich liebst,
dass es dich innerlich zerreißt
mich gehen zu sehen.
Halt mich auf!
Nenn mir nur einen Grund,
warum ich hierbleiben sollte,
nicht gehen darf!
Halt mich auf, halt mich auf!

Ich bewege mich viel zu schnell.
Du lässt dir Zeit mit deiner Konfession.
Weißt du denn nicht,
wenn ich die Stadt verlasse,
ist der Krieg verloren.

Halt mich auf!
Sage mir, dass du mich liebst,
dass es dich innerlich zerreißt
mich gehen zu sehen.
Halt mich auf!
Nenn mir nur einen Grund,
warum ich hierbleiben sollte,
nicht gehen darf!
Halt mich auf, halt mich auf!

Meine Koffer sind viel zu voll
dafür dass ich mein Leben hinter mir lasse.
Siehst du denn nicht,
wenn du mich jetzt küsst,
ist der Krieg vorbei.

Halt mich auf!
Sage mir, dass du mich liebst,
dass es dich innerlich zerreißt
mich gehen zu sehen.

Warum kannst du nicht für mich kämpfen?
Warum ist es dir so egal?
Versprich mir für immer
und lass mich so nicht geh'n.

Halt mich auf!
Sage mir, dass du mich liebst,
dass es dich innerlich zerreißt
mich gehen zu sehen.
Halt mich auf!
Nenn mir nur einen Grund,
warum ich hierbleiben sollte,
nicht gehen darf!
Halt mich auf, halt mich auf!




For a change in German. I have the english translation somewhere, but this one stays in German. Because it means something.

Trying to drown you out

Well, thanks for this inspiration. I just wish you'd be around to listen to it. But you never are, even when you are. You know what I mean. I wish you were here with me, but you are not, because you are absent, as usual.

I see your lips are moving
your hands gesturing wildly
but what are you really saying?

I hear your voice

I don't want you
I don't want you
I don't want you

In my head
Turn me around
I know it's not real

I see your eyes are searching
my face for how I feel
what are you really looking for?

I hear your voice

I don't want you
I don't want you
I don't want you

In my head
Turn me around
I know it's not real

And I'm trying to drown you out
without success
my brain is degrading
I wanna shout

I want you
I want you
I want you

Will you turn around
and please make it real?

And I'm trying to drown you out,
drown you out,
drown you out,

and drown myself instead.

blunt endearment

You turn to me for approval
but what exactly do you want?
Do you want me to support you?
Frankly, I don't think I can.

And you ask for the truth
knowing you'll hurt in the end.
Do you want me to deny it?
Frankly, I don't think I can.

You demand what you think you need
never get what you think you want.
Honestly, I think that you should know
You get what you earn
even though it'snot fair

You want to make great imrovements
you just don't know where to begin.
Do you want me to give you advice?
Frankly, I don't think I can.

Why can't you figure yourself out?
You can't have my thoughts for us both
and frankly enough,
I'm not willing to share

So get your act together
try to grow some guts
'cause frankly enough,
this way you drive me nuts

I love you still

And I love you just the same
but I don't want you anymore
I don't want this heart to hurt
as it does right now

Tell me, do I love too much?
All of a sudden I can't see
why you appealed to me.
But I love you still.

I can't stand your touch
You disgust me to the core
And I don't want you anymore
but I love you still

And I love you just the same
as that very first night
but I don't want you anymore
though I love you still

If you had told me then
that I don't even stand a chance
maybe I could have kept myself from you
now I can't stand your very being
you disgust me to the core
and I don't want you anymore



...but I love you still.

Gregory

Lyrics to the new song, no chords yet. Well, you try to find a tune that goes with these lyrics.

Just a hand - an innocent touch
just a face - an intimate smile
just a word - a whole declaration of love

Gregory,
I breathe it slow
Gregory,
I breathe it low
Gregory,
just like a caress
Gregory,
with infinite finesse

Just his skin - my endless landscape
just a shoulder -my ultimate support
just a name - a whole declaration of love

Gregory,
I breathe it slow
Gregory,
I breathe it low
Gregory,
just like a caress
Gregory,
with infinite finesse

Just some eyes - a whole biography
just his feet - steps into my future
just a man - my whole declaration of love

I close my eyes and see him inside my mind
I turn the music down and hear his voice
I feel his hands on my skin at night
I smell his presenc ein the air around me

Gregory,
I breathe it slow
Gregory,
I breathe it low
Gregory,
just like a caress
Gregory,
with infinite finesse

New Song and new album

Okay, I've written a new song for the new album, which by the way finally has a name.

I've thought about giving this short story project I started a while ago a different name, since it's called "Essence" currently. And I thought about "Seducing Life", but re-reading the songs for the new album I considered the name for the album and found it quite fitting. So, it finally has a name and I'm proud to officially pronounce the work for "Seducing Life" has begun.

So here is that new song:

When breathing becomes too hard
And the heavens suffocate me
You pour your love all over me
You take me heart and lead me here

Where the world is far away
Where there is nothing to say

I feel your spirit within me
I close my eyes, Don't need to see

'Cause you are here inside
Where our two souls collide

{Interlude}

Pour your love all over me!
Take my heart and lead me here

Where the world is far away
Where there is nothing to say!

Make me feel your spirit within me!
Close my eyes, 'cause I don't need to see!

Make me feel the urge
to let our destinies merge
'Cause you are here inside
Where our two souls collide
Where our two souls can't hide.

I'm not sure about a title yet, "Collide" seems fitting, but it always reminds me of that Howie Day song, which I really like, so I don't really want to give the song the same name....so any suggestions are welcome.

Frozen with Time

I finished thi song today, but I won't record anything until my cold has passed....my voice is just raspy and all, doesn't sound very nice. I'm waiting for several replies concerning single CD covers. I need some artists' approval to use their artwork for those covers. I could of course take my own pictures, but since I found these stunning pics in their stock, I decided to ask them about it. Hopefully everything will work out and I'll have a couple of new covers soon. Anyway, here it is:

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When we believed that we could become frozen in time
Time just didn't want to listen,
'cause life just won't listen to reason
so look at what we got
When we believed that we could become frozen in time
Somehow we managed to turn frozen with time

It has always been so simple
nothing could seem to go wrong
even fighting was lovely between the two of us
It has always been so simple
that we never dared to halt
for if we ever halted, we would've surely stopped

When we believed that we could become frozen in time
Time just didn't want to listen,
'cause life just won't listen to reason
so look at what we got
When we believed that we could become frozen in time
Somehow we managed to turn frozen with time

If we ever could go back then
would we find to make it right?
Find the point where it all started,
we turned so indifferent?
It has always been too simple
that we never dared to halt
but if we ever halted, we could've made it stop.

When we believed that we could become frozen in time
Time just didn't want to listen,
'cause life just won't listen to reason
so look at what we got
When we believed that we could become frozen in time
Somehow we managed to turn frozen with time
But if we ever halted, we could've made it stop...

Suicide Song

Just a short little piece, but I like it nevertheless. So here it comes:


In the night when it's dark
just pitch black in your heart
you may just turn around, but you'll cry
'Cause you'll hear this unmistakable melody
and you'll know that's the way
it's supposed to be

This life is a suicide song
sing your stanza
and then gracefully bow
and leave the stage
This life is a suicide song
every funeral is a chorus
What makes you think
the crowd will give applause?
What makes you think
you've earned any applause?

Lift your eyes and you'll see
you are all on your own
just like ev'ryone else, you may cry
'Cause you'll hear this unmistakable melody
and you'll now that's the way
it's supposed to be.

This life is a suicide song
You had your stanza
now just gracefully bow
and leave the stage.
This life is a suicide song
your funeral is just a chorus.
What makes you think
the crownd will give applause?
What makes you think
you've earned any applause?

Suicide Song

Seems my muse is back. Anyway, just started working on the new song "Suicide Song".
It's intriguing what a little insomnia can do for my muse. The song is coming along nicely and with any luck the lyrics will be standing tomorrow night or so....will see bout the chords...but there is no hurry there since I won't be recording anything in the near future. Just wanted to let you guys know.

My sacred prerogative

All the shit that you do
I really wish I could hate you
I don't like how things are now
Don't like the turn that we've taken

But it's my prerogative to speak my mind
but it's my prerogative to choose the distance between us

All the lies that you told
I still wish I could believe you
All the pain that you caused
I still wish I could be near you

Now it's my prerogative to speak my mind
now it's my prerogative to choose the distance between us

I can't believe I wanted to apologize
can't believe I tried to reach out
Knowing I'm better off this way
just doesn't mend a broken heart

All the shit we went through
I really thought it meant something
Now when I look at you
All I can see is a stranger

So it's my prerogative to close my heart
so it's my prerogative to choose the distance between us
my prerogative to cut you out of my life
my prerogative
my sacred prerogative

When You Do

And you dance into my life
and you know perfectly well
I’m gonna dance along
And you lurch into my life
and you know perfectly well
I’m gonna lurch along

When you touch me
When you kiss me
When you lead me home

And you come into my life
and you know perfectly well
I’m gonna come along
And you strike into my life
and you know perfectly well
I’m gonna strike along

When you touch me
When you kiss me
When you lead me home

You know me better than myself
Lead me to heights I can’t archieve myself
You now me better than anyone else
Rationality evaporates

When you touch me
When you kiss me
When you lead me home

Sometimes

Sometimes I want to be assured
That you are here - right next to me
Sometimes I feel a sudden need
The need to touch and smell your skin
Sometimes I just need some holding
Sometimes

Sometimes I have to close my eyes
For concentrating once more on you
Sometimes I gaze through the window
Just for the possibility of seeing you
Sometimes I just need some holding
Sometimes

Sometimes when you are too far
To let me drift into sleep
Sometimes when the only thought
Spinning in my mind is you
Sometimes I just need some holding
Sometimes

Sometimes I feel overwhelmed
When your eyes lock with mine
Sometimes I have ti shiver
When whispering your name
Sometimes I just need some holding
Sometimes

Sometimes you catch my attention
From everything besides
Sometimes your voice casts a spell
Sometimes I’m not even able to cry
Sometimes I just need some holding
Sometimes

Sometimes I just need some holding

Scream Louder

1. You’re wrong, when you think you need me
You’re wrong, when you think you know me

Even I haven’t figured me out
Even if I scream I can’t scream that loud

2. You’re right, when you say I get it all wrong
You’re right, when you say I can never belong

Even I haven’t figured me out
Even if I scream I can’t scream that loud

Scared and Weak

I beg you to fly

Please fly

So much higher than I ever will

I beg you to fly

Please don't fall for me

Don't fall into these arms tonight

'cause these arms can't hold you tonight


1. I see the look in your eyes

The desire to be held close

And I wish I could do what you ask

But I'm scared and I am weak

And so I


Beg you to fly

Please fly

So much higher than I ever will

I beg you to fly

Please don't fall for me

Don't fall into these arms tonight

'cause these arms can't hold you tonight


2. You touch me and I flinch

I can't bear what I feel inside

And I wish I could do what I want

But I'm scared and I am weak

And so I


Beg you to fly...

Rapture My Soul

1. I left again this morning, you woke up and said good-bye,
Knowing we will meet again so soon.
And as I drove along the road this thought overcame me
I didn’t even feel a single tear.
And when we say our long good-bye for the last time
And when we know that we will never meet again
It’s gonna break my heart in two
It’s gonna rapture my soul

2. She stumbles down the street, not recognizing any house
Sensing somehow she has lost her way
The only door she knows, it’s not her home here anymore
She gets the sign to leave this place for good.
And when the princess cried again for the last time
And when she knows that she will never laugh again
It’s gonna break her heart in two
It’s gonna rapture her soul

Part-Time Lover

I breathe the air around you and I get high

Every day you are my friend,
the only one to comprehend
You are my shoulder to lean on,
you are the one who makes me feel strong

I breathe the air around you and I get high

At night you turn into my lover
and you seduce me while we uncover
our midnight bodies as we ought to
and you remind me why I love you

When you’re around me
there’s something in the air
You have this attitude
of showing that you care

You make my heart beat louder
I make no sound
Blood rushing through my skin
your hunting ground

My Maria

Chorus1:

So this is my Maria, don’t you dare
saying a bad word about her
This is my Maria, oh, as she goes


1. Stanza:

She starts her day in the morning usually late
But she can do what she wants
the world will wait


Chorus1

2. Stanza:

She makes my day ev’ry time in her private jet
If you see the two of us together
we’re on drugs you’d bet


Chorus2:

But this is my Maria, don’t you dare
saying a bad word about her
This is my Maria, oh, as she goes


Chorus1 2x

Leaving for Good from Inside

All that I need is a kind of destination
but it seems so pointless
no interruption in this road
So many bridges leading over troubled water
So many rivers standing still

All that we want is get rid of our frustration
but nothing’s made easy
there’s no escape from this mood
so many highs and lows in our own minds
so many doubts stuck in our heads

and when all this is so hopeless
the darkness that surrounds
threatens to penetrate into our very cores
and when all this is so hopeless
no light will shine
and all the warmth is leaving for good from inside

All that you get is a slap of anger in your face
but nothing hurts anymore
than this frozen place of disgrace
so many walls rising up right before our eyes
and so little doors standing open in honesty

and when all this is so hopeless...

I Love You

You are what you say
You say what you mean to me
You know what you want
You tell me you want me now

And I know this is you telling me:

"I love you with all my heart
I’ll love you for he rest of our lives."

You are what you seem
You tell me what I meant to you
You get what you want
And you tell me you want me now

And I know this is you telling me:

"I love you with all my heart
I’ll love you for the rest of our lives."

And I love you with all my heart
I’ll love for the rest of our lives, of our lives

I aim to please {The Oh-Shit Song}

If you hold me any closer
I’ll be inside you
and it becomes clear to me
I want to crawl inside you
and never come out again
||: Drive me home :||

I aim to please, I aim to please

If you pay some more attnetion
to the way I dressed
I could get the impression
you’re about to invade my space
as you so often do, that's alright
||: Swallow me whole :||

I aim to please, I aim to please

I let you step into my mind
discover places
secretly hidden inside,
want you to crawl inside me
and never come out again
Please breathe me
Just absorb me
Please imbibe me
and drive me home

I aim to please, I aim to please

Fairytale

1. This fairytale you're telling me
It sounds like the truth
Every other night I would follow you
But this seems cruel
I could just say all this feels so...
As if I was fooled
But then again, how could I know
If you were true?

With all that you told me before
How could I fear this?
Nothing was ever as right as tonight.
How did you do this?

2. And in my worst nightmares
You always saved me
But in the mornings to come
Somehow you'd left
I could not comprehend then
Everything was so blurry
But now that I see it myself
I believe it will do

Every night in my dreams I knew you'd
Be there to lead
And I did not fear the mornings.................

With all that you told me before
How could I fear this?
Nothing was ever as right as tonight.
How did you do this?

3. I cherish these moment forever
With wide open eyes
And when the night falls
You will be close

Every night in my dreams I knew you'd
Be there to lead
And I did not fear the mornings
My heart did not bleed...............

With all that you told me before
How could I fear this?
Nothing was ever as right as tonight.
How did you do this?
How did you do this?
How did you do this?

Believe

1. When I look at you as I do now
And I feel your heartbeat according to mine
I wish you could see that ev'rything will be fine


But tonight I think
We both can forget
But tonight I believe
Nothing is planned

2. When you give me that look you're givin' me now
I wish your hand would hold me as I fall
And I realize that there is so much more

But tonight...

3. And we both just know we will be here
Ev'ry hour, ev'ry second when we need to be near
And it's just so life-saving to have a friend like you

And tonight I think
We can forget the world
And tonight we believe
It was all planned
It was all planned

All Over Again

As we explore,
we define the fine lines
the strings that connect
drawing ourselves
burning images
of ourselves
with our fingertips
into precious skin, precious minds
I surrender my soul
as your heart opens up
to capture what’s needed
and give more than enough

||:And here we go again
here we meet again
get to know each other all over again:||

When we reatreat
we get back into the grey
the colour it lingers
heavy on us
no need to rush
to those old
slowly fading selves
from precious skies, precious homes
and thus you teach
how to see without eyes
to capture what’s needed
and give more than enough

No need to compensate
all that we feel is here, is here
not enough to cry
not enough to die
‘cause all the love it hurts so
the need to convey it
Please make me utter
please make gasp
please make me perceive like that
once again

||:And here we go again
here we meet again
get to know each other all over again:||