Trying to drown you out

Well, thanks for this inspiration. I just wish you'd be around to listen to it. But you never are, even when you are. You know what I mean. I wish you were here with me, but you are not, because you are absent, as usual.

I see your lips are moving
your hands gesturing wildly
but what are you really saying?

I hear your voice

I don't want you
I don't want you
I don't want you

In my head
Turn me around
I know it's not real

I see your eyes are searching
my face for how I feel
what are you really looking for?

I hear your voice

I don't want you
I don't want you
I don't want you

In my head
Turn me around
I know it's not real

And I'm trying to drown you out
without success
my brain is degrading
I wanna shout

I want you
I want you
I want you

Will you turn around
and please make it real?

And I'm trying to drown you out,
drown you out,
drown you out,

and drown myself instead.